Where I started
In 2015 the hardships of my marriage came to a breaking point. We were at our lowest point as a unit and we were unknowingly tearing each other apart trying to keep it all together.
With the end of my marriage came the hardest moments of my adult life. My reality and view of the future was shattered. I had been with my partner since I was 18 years old. Not only did I not know who I was without him, I had a baby to raise and one on the way. ‘How am I going to raise two kids alone? I’m not strong enough. How could I begin to raise kids and be strong if I feel so weak?’ I wanted to hide under a rock, never to return to the sunlight.
I could not see what the struggles of the years had done to me. I could not see the light. I would have preferred to stay in darkness with the familiar than be thrust into the unknown. I was physically ill, flat broke with no food on the table, and alone. I was no stranger to the guidance of the stars and the mind. As an (almost) psych major I had studied the brain, emotions, and the body for years both professionally and personally but I could not see how I was sabotaging my own life.
The shift
One day I had to make a conscious choice that enough was enough. I had to stop pretending the pieces of my life would magically be fixed. This realization came to me slowly as I spent more time waking up every day and doing what I needed to do. Since then, I’ve been on a mission with both acceptance and some resistance to the path and purpose meant for me. This journey hasn’t been easy but most of my hardship has come from that resistance to change.
The process
I had no idea where to even start figuring my life out or who I even was without “my life”. Nevertheless, I made a choice to no longer be paralyzed by a lack of health, wealth, and relationships. I had a toddler, newborn baby, a divorce, and nothing was “how it was supposed to be.” I stated revisiting the things I had been most passionate about prior to meeting my partner. I re-engaged in my Psychology classes. I dove into raising babies, creating a peaceful space in a world where we had none. I found myself, little by little and through a lot of trial research.
I learned how to rewire the neurons in my brain to see the world differently. I went from not being able to answer the simplest questions like ‘what music do you like?’ to being so grounded that I am willing to walk away from any temporary happiness to fulfill my purpose and have peace. A life full of heartache and tragedy, from childhood until my late 20’s, no longer had to define my path. I was learning who I was, who I wanted to be, and (quite literally) creating purposefully happy moments in the most unhappy of times.
I had never before learned to stand up for myself. While I was born into this world vocal, the world had put me in a box. Told me to be meek and know my place… and I let it. I let it quiet me. I let it form me.
The outcome
Today… today I am so grateful to be able to say I am thriving. I am truly living in an abundance of health, wealth, and relationships.
And it all started with an idea… 💡
To take ownership of MY own future.
It took me a bit to figure out how but building block after building block I have learned so much about myself. I’m so happy to be here, everyday, living this life of mine.
This road to finding yourself isn’t easy but I promise with certainty that; whether you work with me, someone else, or are able to successfully guide yourself, it will be the most rewarding journey you have embarked on.
I am able to show up in ways I never thought possible. I’ve gone from having NOTHING, not even myself, to building a life with my kids that I never dreamed possible. One of peace, acceptance, happiness, understanding, mindfulness, and presence. This is why this work is so personal for me, is to help other women and men with the three defining pillars of life (health, wealth, and relationship). Through my research, mistakes, and studies I have developed a program that helps you do just that, if you are ready.
I am PASSIONATE about paying it forward and serving those ready to stop feeling lost, lonely, and unworthy. Are you ready to feel grounded? Join me in living in an abundance of health, wealth, and relationships!
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