In vulnerability, there is strength

Towards the end of 2021 I identified a need within myself and committed to learning how to vocalize my needs/desires. I committed to taking up space because I felt like I was slipping away from who I was and those closest to me started to feel like strangers. Like my space was no longer stable. So I started asking for clarity and stability. 🙏🏼

Step 2. I decided to start to envision daily what stability looked like to me and asking for clarity. You have to know what you need, what you can provide, and what you need out of others before you can vocalize it in a productive manner. 🧘🏻‍♀️

The universe laughed right in my face and said “hold my tea” ☕️ 👀

I’ve already learned many lessons in 2022. I’ve definitely found my voice. 😆 🤭

But I’m also still learning so many more …

I’ve learned there is POWER in vulnerability…

Step 3. has so far been a bit of a rocky attempt to process my emotions and state needs in the moment. This has put pressure on me because I like to really sit with something before I speak. This has come with some regret but also something really beautiful has emerged from it.

I am so much more emotionally confident than I was just 6-12 short months ago. I’ve realized vulnerability is not a weakness. That ONE shift in mindset has given me so much internal stability. I openly share feelings with those closest to me without internal hesitation, reclusion, or resistance. It’s truly amazing how quickly you can re-center yourself when you are emotionally confident and internally stable.

Now, I still keep a lot close to me and I am naturally a private person but I’ve come to realize these emotions aren’t a sign of weakness. They are a sign of vulnerability and there is so much strength and beauty in vulnerability.

Even if I know someone doesn’t feel the same or I know we are worlds apart, I’ve been able to state my emotions, feelings, and thoughts within relationships.

• I’ve learned you can know you are going to be okay and continue to allow yourself to feel the emotions of the moment.

• I’ve learned that it is okay to feel gratitude and longing at the same time.

• I’ve learned to vocalize my needs, desires, and emotions.

Now I am able to say:

I feel (insert emotion) because of (actions/personal vantage point/interpretation) and this (insert boundary, outcome, action, etc) is how I am able to respond in this moment.

When you vocalize your needs and set healthy boundaries, you allow the universe to bring the people into your space that value those things and can live in an abundance of peace.

I have some work to do. I’m learning to allow the universe to provide those things to me in even the most unexpected forms. I’m finding understanding in the things I do not understand. I’m still learning to recognize fleeting emotion and how I feel in moments where I speak too quickly. Definitely over corrected there 😜. I still find beauty is processing and coming back to the matter at hand and will learn to balance the two. 😌

I am in control of exactly ☝️ humans actions, thoughts, and feelings, just as you are. I am finding peace in that but also a stronger responsibility to ensure that my responses to the unknown is one that should be met with understanding. Just as these souls have implemented here. This, I will now focus on.

#alwayslearning #alwaysgrowing